It's amazing how quickly your life can change. Things don't stay the same for long. Right now I am currently experiencing a vast world of change and I'm not sure that everything is going quite right.
This past Tuesday I quit my job at the Florist. September 2nd is my last day and I'm a little worried. I was hired at South Beach Casino, had my orientation on Monday and still do not know when I'm actually starting there. HR said that my manager would call me this week to go over the details but I have yet to hear his voice even. I am so nervous that September 2nd will come and I will be without a job. I don't want to be put into that position again. I went through that last September when I was let go from CHVN. I ended up being unemployed for a month. I cannot deal with that now. I have bills to pay and without a job I will be at a loss. I know that I'm probably worrying for nothing but that's who I am, I must think of every scenario. I also sent away an application for Canada Post and really very much hope that I receive a favourable response. This whole growing up thing is a bit of a pain I must say.
The frustration of moving has also been plaguing me. I am just ready to get out of the trailer so we can settle into our new digs. I want to be able to have all my stuff in one place and not have to worry about it whatsoever. I want to unpack the boxes and make myself a home. So much has been done thus far but there is still lots that has not.
I have only a couple days left a Curves and I have been forcing myself to go because hey it's paid for but whenever I go in there I just get bombarded with insecurities. I am always being stared at. Probably because for the most part when I'm in there I'm the smallest one. I never really feel at ease there mainly due to my age. I just want to be finished with it and no longer have to worry about it. I just hope that the home workout routine that Adam has developed will suit me and that I will be able to stick to it.
These trivial matters of my life are plaguing me and I just want to be set at ease...I think I need a vacation.
