Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Biting My Own Tongue

As I read my previous positivity boasting notes I start think to myself, "Why am I not listening to what I have said?". Job searching is taking its toll on me big time. As hard as I try to push the stress aside, it's been poking it's nasty little head through the curtain. The stress of sitting around doing nothing everyday and the disappointment of not finding decent job openings is really getting to me. These last few days have felt like such downers for me. I really need to pick myself up again before all the pieces are spilled on the floor. I need to escape this job so I can keep my sanity! Why should my friends and family have to deal with my constant griping about a job I hate? But right now that is the main topic of my life...When did my life become centered around work? If I am going to be stuck at this job I need a solution!! I think the solution will be Christmas. I know that right now you're thinking to yourself that Christmas is 2 months away. Well I am the over planner of the century and I will focus on planning for Christmas. There are Christmas gifts to buy, Christmas cards to buy and write, Christmas gifts to make, parties to plan, cookies to bake and so much more. Maybe if I put my energy into Christmas all the other junk will seem insignificant. Plus only a few more weeks until I can deem it not too early to start decorating!! Yay!!
In other news I am thinking of taking an on the side job of clowning. It will probably be difficult at first because you have to decide what type of clown you want to be and how to set a small business type thing around it but I think I can make it work. With my love for acting and being silly I think that clowning will come naturally to me and if not then I am no worse for wear. I think that it would be a super fun way to make a little extra cash on the side.
OK so I am boring today. I thought that I would have more to say but apparently I really, really don't. My hope for the next few days is SNOW. Keep thinking snowy thoughts, it would be a wonderful pick me up!!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Not in High Demand

Today I feel that I am not in high demand. As I think over my job history I realize that many of my jobs have been given to me because I have either known someone or I was at the end of my rope and applied for a job I really did not want. Let's look at the history:
Safeway: Mom's friend introduced me to manager when I brought in my application; didn't really want to work there but it was something that was relatively not crappy for a first job.
CHVN: Was recommended by one of my instructors; loved the job for the most part though.
Archway: Last resort; hence why I didn't even last a week
Wal-Mart: Last resort; hadn't had a job in like 2 months and needed something so I settled for the Photo Lab...liked it for the most part but ran into frequent issues with my dislike for the way the management in the store was
Selkirk Florist: Knew the person who was quitting and she suggested me for the job. I enjoyed floral but there was way too much down time.
South Beach Casino: Last resort; needed to be doing something but apparently I hate waitressing..or at least I hated it there.
MTS Connect: Last resort; needed a job so dropped off resume on a whim...loved the girls but the job itself was a bit of a waste and then also the new owner freaked me out.
BOMImed: Mom knew my now manager; thought the job would be great but now I feel as if I am going brain dead just by working here.
Out of all the jobs I have had so far CHVN was pretty much the only one that I really wanted and enjoyed.
The other weird thing is going to an interview. When I go to interviews I tend to get vibes about whether or not the interview has gone well or not. For the jobs that I have actually been hired for there were generally good vibes. There has also been many, many, many jobs that I have gone to interviews for and left with a good vibe and then have been shot down horribly. Worst thing ever by the way. Example: had an interview at U Weight Loss Clinic...job sounded great and the interview went very well. Was called for a second interview which also went well...a few days later received an email stating that I was not a "successful candidate at this time". I have had so many of these great interviews that these people just don't want to hire me for. I think I am an excellent interviewee but maybe I'm just being too sure of myself. When it comes to the dreaded job search I can be way to picky; as Adam puts it "I just don't like to work". That statement is not true even though sometimes I think it is. When I look at jobs I am looking at description, wage, hours and location, which everyone looks at but it seems if one thing doesn't quite fit I pass over it. You get to the point where you're not sure what exactly you even want anymore. While job searching online today I came across a position to be one of Santa's helpers in a mall. I would LOVE to do the job and think I would be quite good at it. The hold off on applying right now is the fact that I would only be employed for 2 months and then come Christmas Day I will have nothing. Do I really want to be in that place again? Right now I am thinking that I would be fit for retail but the thing is, is that a step back? Or if I did get into retail I could start at the bottom and work my way up; make it a career. That would be smart and I have the brains to do it; I just need to get out of these jobs that I never have a chance to use my brain on a regular basis. Retail would probably be a good choice for me because it doesn't fall into any of the categories that I deem undesirable in a job. I am picky towards many jobs.
Bars: Would love to mix drinks but wouldn't be able to handle drunks
Waitressing: Great service skills but hate cleaning up after people and have a hard time dealing with people getting angry with me..and drunks
Call Centre: Can't handle people yelling at me, have a hard time with accents and get a headache from wearing a headset
Old People: Love old people but can't deal with cleaning up after their bodily functions
Kids: Love kids but only when they behave for at least the most part; also don't like cleaning up after bodily functions of theirs
Cleaning and driving for a job are also out of the picture.
Management: I think I would be awesome at it; just need to work on toughening myself up a bit.
There are also the jobs that I want to do but would only make pennies at which would be fine if I didn't have to drive distances to get to them. Example: broadcasting or acting jobs.
So I guess I am picky..very picky apparently. So maybe I should just try to get onto a reality show and make a large quantity of money. Big Brother here I come...but do they let Canadians in?
Hopefully one of these days I will be in high demand and no one will think twice about hiring me. For now I will just spread the word and hope my friends will keep there eyes and ears open for employment that will suit Morgan. I want to use my brain everyone so keep your career radar antennas up!! I need all the help I can get!!
Also we're crossing or fingers for some snow....all of the little bit of snow that we had melted and I need another pick me up. Enjoy a hot cup of cocoa by a warm fire, maybe that will encourage the snow to come(no fire, just use a warm blanket).

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Let's Get Down & Chilly!!-Wasting the Day Away

Do you ever feel like you're doing nothing with yourself and like you could be doing something much better? That's how I feel right now when I am at work. My job has become a game to me, "How to waste the day away and not get caught". It's not the most fun game in the world but it is what it is. I sit at a desk Monday to Friday with literally nothing at all to do. When I first came into this job it was everything I had hoped for but rather quickly turned into my worst nightmare...nothing! If you combine my entire weeks work you will realize that when put together my tasks equal one day(sometimes not even that) of a normal persons job tasks. I end up spending my days on the Internet blogging, Facebooking, or random Google searching or texting my friends. Since I am not supposed to be doing either I have to make sure I keep my phone under my desk and that I minimize my screen every time I hear approaching footsteps. I even have gone as far as learning every one's footfalls so I know who is approaching and if I need to close my screen rather than minimize. Don't get me wrong, I have tried to create actual work tasks for myself but I have done so much that there is nothing left for me to do. I ask my boss if there is anything that needs to be done and she usually says no or hands me two pieces of paper that need to be filed. This isn't a job, it's a waste of time. I need to be doing something. I miss working with customers and interacting with other employees that actually want to interact with you. Therefore I am on the job hunt again. I hate being on the job hunt but I am so sick of these nothing jobs where I sit on my butt day after day. Tonight the first official stop on my hunt will be U Weight Loss Centre. I submitted an application this past Friday and was called for an interview Saturday. We shall see how the interview goes this evening. I am predicting good things and have my list of questions prepared to make sure I get as much knowledge of the job as possible. I see many pro's to this job and hoping that I do not see any con's. If I do manage to get this job I will feel bad leaving my current one. I think my boss may have gone out on a limb for me because she knows my Mom. There even are a few people that I will miss seeing everyday but I need to do what's best for me and right now BOMImed is certainly not best for me. I am keeping my chin up because I know that there is a job out there that is just waiting for me!
A chilly but fabulous long weekend just past. I truly wish that it could have been longer. I am completely worn out but I think that just shows that I took the long weekend and ran with it!! The weekend began before the week was even complete. Thursday night we had friends over for pizza and beer! This was the beginning of the late nights. Thursday was great though because I met one of Adam's friends girlfriend Jamie and I believe we have a good friendship in our future. Friday night I headed over to Jamie's place to hang out. It was a rather eventful evening but unfortunately I was feeling a tad under the weather which prevented me from having as much fun as I could have! As they continued to another party I wandered on home in the slightly chilly snowy night. Saturday morning brought a cookie explosion! My great pal Kristen came over to escape the hurricane that occurred in her apartment and we baked over four dozen sugar cookies. They were Halloween themed and we even decorated them!! It was an excellent morning of baking and girl talk. Saturday evening brought a birthday meal for our pal Les at Tony Roma's. The company was superb but the meal was a disappointment. I ordered a basic chicken fingers and fries..they were horrible; way over salted. Adam had steak and it was flavourless. The food cost a good chunk and it was not worth it at all. And then there was Sunday. It was a nice laid back kind of day. I picked up the groceries and then came home and just relaxed. Our first Thanksgiving meal of the weekend was that evening! We headed over to Adam's parents to enjoy a delicious turkey dinner!! Monday had it's ups and downs. We headed to my Dad's place for lunch where we enjoyed a wonderful meal and then Adam and I cleaned my junk out of my old bedroom there. I found my Eeyore Jammie's!!! Once we got home we were greeted with the pleasant surprise of a furnace that crapped out. But at least it didn't happen in the dead of winter, right? Later yesterday night my bestest bud in the entire world , Kaitlyn came over with her father the "Jack of all Trades". Daddio Pankiw may be an electrician by day but he's superman by night. He was able to diagnose what was wrong and is coming tonight to fix it at a cheaper rate than any furnace man would charge us. I love that man!!! It was mildly chilly in the house last night with no furnace but at least we had our little radiator and down filled comforter from our chilly days spent in the summer kitchen last year!
It's a short work week due to Thanksgiving and I am predicting a promising week. With the way things are looking up all might be well very soon. I have the possibility of a new job to look forward to, visiting with good friends and the execution of my hair; I'm chopping it off...all off. Well not all but it's getting short I promise you that!!
Today was brought to you by the letter "P"...Keep warm and experience things!!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Embracing Something: Letting the cards fall and making things positive

Lately I've been thinking about the ability to embrace something. There should always be something that you embrace; whether it be physical or mental. Embracing can be thought of in many ways. One way is the physical act of person to person contact; mainly a hug. But the main way that I see embracing is forming a love for something(s). I find that embracing is a way to find the good in something that is otherwise seen as bad. Example: Cooler weather; most people get frustrated or disappointed because they don't want winter to come. They would rather it stay summer all year round. These people should either move to a warmer climate or learn to embrace the better things/events of the season. This year I have decided to embrace "the hat". I have never been one to wear hats during the winter unless I was actually doing stuff outside but this year hats will be worn. I have already begun my collection of winter head wear. So far it is mostly little head hugging tuques but more styles of head wear will certainly come into play. Last year the temperatures were freaking freezing but instead of hiding inside away from the cold I whipped out my grandmother's mink coat! This year I encourage you to embrace winter. Take time to smell the snow and do outdoor activities. Bonfires aren't just for summer you know! Take out the ice skates, sleds, and snow pants. Make this your year to embrace winter! I know I will!
We've embraced winter, snow, hats and colder weather now to embrace creativity. When one thinks creativity you mainly go straight to art but creativity comes in many forms and is something I love to embrace! Whether it's creating art, baked goods, food, or even this blog creating is a good thing. It gives you a way to express yourself, let loose or even just relax. For Christmas this year many people will be getting gifts that I create. I will be making everything from scarves and dishcloths to paintings to baked goods. The receivers of these gifts will get to experience the joy that I have had making their gifts. It's in us all to create. No one can say they are not creative. Everyone can create something; after all we were created in God's image and He's the creator of all things.
Embrace holidays. Holidays are a time to be with family and treasure your time together. There are some people out there that try to make sure that they work on holidays so they get a better paycheck or so that they can actually avoid their family. I can see that the extra money is nice but why waste an opportunity to be with family when all you're doing is severing the relationships you have with these people? So don't pick up that extra shift if you don't have to, spend time with the people you were born to. And if you really don't want to embrace your family at least embrace the food they're serving you! If you somehow can resist holiday food there MUST be something wrong with you.
Embrace LIFE! No one should ever want to end their life. Life is one of the most precious gifts that has ever been given to us and we should truly embrace it. In this life we have been given the opportunity to embrace the world around us and there really is so much that we can embrace; so go out and do it. Embrace life, embrace the world!
At this point in my life I am taking time to embrace the world around me. Why see the negative when you can just as easily pull the positive out? I'm not saying that you're not allowed to have a bad day here and there but don't waste your life surrounded by bad days. If that bad day sneaks in cry if you must, throw back some chocolate or a wobbly pop and just push that bad day out the door so that tomorrow will be better. We all need to learn to take criticism with a grain of salt, even me. Find something you love and embrace it! It doesn't matter whether you embrace one thing or one million things; just EMBRACE!!
Now that you have read this get out there and embrace life!

Friday, October 2, 2009

Blogging, Bogging, 1,2,3

Autumn is taking me into its full embrace! I love it!! This week has been excellent Autumn embracing weather! I have been able to pull out my pirate boots, cozy sweaters, fuzzy socks, warm scarves and even a wonderful tuque...I never know the correct spelling for tuque but apparently this is a correct variation so I'll stick with it. From Monday until Wednesday this week Adam and I decided that it would be nice to take after dinner walks. It has been wonderful! Gypsy(the dog) loves it too of course! Last night we did not venture out on a walk though because I had a crappy day and also supper took longer than planned to make so it was already dark by the time that we ate. Yesterday was an interesting day to say the least. I was at work and someone came up to me and says, "Morgan you have a flat tire, why don't you go put air in it" So I drive to the nearest gas station and had to take the roll of a stereotypical woman of course. I have never put air in my tires because I have never had a flat so I asked the guy if he would come out and put air in my tire. So the guy who I found out also goes by the name Morgan comes out and tells me, "The reason your tire is flat is because there is a nail stuck in it". Oh great! Luckily he asked me if I would like him to change my tire for me. I of course accepted because a)I have never changed a tire and b)I was in a skirt. Reason "b" may also be the reason why he offered to change the tire but whatever it got done! I then drop my tire off at Sturgeon Tire to get fixed and about an hour or so later I receive a phone call saying that my tire cannot be fixed. No good at all....Then five minutes later they call again to say that they have a used tire that will fit my car that they will sell to me for cheap. That was the shinier lining of my experience I guess. But what a long stressful day for me. When I got home last night I decided to make soup for supper. Apparently I put too much stuff in though because by the time it was ready there was no liquid left..not even enough for it to be considered stew. We ate it anyways and froze the leftovers so when we do want soup all we have to do is add liquid and heat it up!!
The weekend is thrilling. It's kind of nice that there is nothing planned this weekend and Adam will actually be home for once as far as I know. This weekend I decided that I will embrace baking with pumpkin. My first attempt will be a pumpkin muffin. I am very eager to find out how they will turn out!! Tonight Adam and I are going to go out for supper. I think that it will be nice to actually get out just the two of us! We're going to attempt to go to one of my favorite restaurants in Selkirk which is Barney Gargles. Every time we go there we always end up turning around and going elsewhere because the line up is too long but I think today I want to stick it out; I really miss their food!
Something that I am enjoying about this cooler weather is the fact that it's not too warm to drink tea! Everyday when I come to work now I make myself a nice cup of tea. It makes me so relaxed for my day. Yesterday I didn't get to finish my cup of tea before the whole tire ordeal so maybe that's why I had a less than good kind of day.
I cannot believe how fast the months are flying by. It's October now!! Thanksgiving is just around the corner!! I am still debating about whether or not I want to make a Thanksgiving dinner. I did last year and it turned out wonderfully but last year I didn't have to pay for all the ingredients because we were still living at Adam's parents place. I at least am guaranteed a dinner at my Dad's place. Just 29 short days until Halloween! Yay!! This weekend I am going to pick up the pieces for my witch costume as well as some decorations for the house!! I am so excited! The one not so exciting thing is Adam works and so far I cannot find anyone who wants to come hand out candy with me. I guess I will just have to do it myself!! It's so great that I even have a black cat to go with my costume!!
83 days until Christmas!! Christmas is one of my favorite times of year. I love all of the lights, decorations and of course the true meaning of Christmas. It's such a magical time of year..I know that that sounds very cliched but I still love it! This year I have decided that for the most part I want to make all of our gifts. I am going to do knitting, baking and other craft type gifts. We're still going to buy gifts for our parents and maybe throw gift cards in for the siblings but for the most part I want to give out handmade gifts. I am a very materialistic person, I am ashamed to admit but I still love handmade gifts. It's more precious because it shows that the person actually put thought and time into your gift instead of just throwing something into a bag. I am so excited for Christmas baking and decorating. So much fun!! I am still trying to figure out a way to prevent the cats from climbing the Christmas tree. Two Christmases ago Adam and I had bought a brand new artificial Christmas tree and the day that I set it up I had gone out with my Mom and came home to a tree that the cat had climbed and scattered all the ornaments throughout the house! It was a disaster. We tied the tree to the wall and even sprayed it with this anti-bite stuff that we thought might fend off the cat but it ended up that the cat liked the spray...It was an interesting Christmas season! Last year we didn't really have this problem because we were living in the summer kitchen and only had room for the tiny tree and there was so much stuff surrounding it that Dyna could not climb it! But this year we are in a house and I am not sure what to do yet. One option I have considered is an electric train but with that the train would always have to be one and also Dyna/Pancake could probably just be sneaky and sneak over the track in the area where that train currently is not. Second option is finding motion detector toys to situate around the tree..But that also could be an annoying option and also most motion sensing toys are only set off by vibration or sound which cats generally do not make when they're moving around...unless you're my Mom's cat Louie who is constantly meowing. Third option is to build a gift bag wall around the tree. I would have to buy the giant bags and tape them together so they can't sneak in between. So many options but I think I may go with the gift bag option because it's cheaper and still looks decorative. Some people do the baby gate thing but I find that tacky and want something that still looks like it's meant to be there. Well at least I still have like 2 months to decide. Well actually less than two months because I generally will put up the tree a couple weeks before then end of November...yes I am crazy if that's what you are thinking!
Let's see..words of wisdom for today...we'll go with Take time to cuddle with someone under a nice warm blanket!! Indeed!!