Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Paper Thin
I've been in this place before...I still cannot find a job out there for me. Still at BOMImed and let's face it, it has cut me off at the knees...not literally of course. I am still "sticking it out" unfortunately and I really don't know how much longer I will be able to do so. This job has taken me to an ugly place. I don't want to wake up in the morning, my emotions have no control over themselves and really I'm purely miserable! I have been stretched paper thin and feel like I will tear any day now. I haven't been sleeping well for the past few months and it is creating havoc in my life. Last week I was pulled into my supervisors office; the door was closed for this conversation...never a good sign. It turns out that someone who I work with is a total rat and told one of the bosses that I am always on Facebook during work hours and I have been "venting" about my job on my page. First off..there was no venting on my Facebook. There was one little comment that was a reply to someones comment that eluded to the fact that I am not happy and debating whether or not to leave. But of course all of this was blown out of proportion which resulted in the little sit down. All who know me know that I crumble at the slight sight of confrontation. So yes, I broke down in her office and told her that I am looking for new employment because this is not the place for me. Twenty minutes of crying in her office later, she says she'll keep it on the down-low that I want to leave. The next day comes and she pulls me aside again to tell me to make sure I do not mention to anyone that I am planning on leaving because if the "Big Boss" finds out that I am looking for a new job she'll be in shit and I will be fired...promising eh? Prior to these happenings I have also been pulled aside to tell me not to talk to the receptionist and I have also found out that other people have been told not to talk to me. What a warm atmosphere? From the stress of my not liking my job and not being able to find a new one I have changed into a different person. If I don't hear someone correctly there is the possibility that I will break out in tears, I am tired all the time which sometimes results in me falling asleep on the couch before 9pm, and I truly have no ambition to do anything. I am stress eating and not treating people the way that they should be treated. I've become distant and it's not just hurting me, it's hurting everyone around me. I need to get out of this job before it eats me whole. The first day back after New Year's I will most likely be handing in my resignation, even if it means being unemployed for a short time. If it does come down to being unemployed I have decided that while job searching I will fill my time with volunteer work. I want to "adopt-a-grandparent" so to speak. It's been over a year since I lost my grandparents and I truly miss their companionship. I know that there are many elderly people living in seniors homes or hospitals that never have anyone come visit them and I want to be able to bring joy to someone. It would be wonderful to go visit them, read to them and play games with them...plus it gives me an excuse to whip out my dominoes set!! Even though volunteer work would be a nice change of pace I still need to keep my job search face on. It's going to be weird and scary to leave a job without another one lined up but I need to do this for myself. I cannot stay at a job where my mental health is deteriorating by the minute. I need to buck up and start looking forward to things again. This week has 3 work days left, next week only has 3 and the week after only has 2.5 days. Christmas is only 9 days away. My 4 year anniversary with Adam is only 31 days away and my birthday is only 45 days away. So there are things to look forward to. I need to relish in those things because otherwise I will just keep plummeting with no escape. Ah yes, work you either live or die with or without it.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
No Snow for Christmas
This has been a weird year in more ways the one. Thinking back over these last 11 months, I have realized that this has been the year where I've tried to reinvent myself. I've searched my soul and tried to answer questions while creating new ones. The main topics I have dived into are relationships, religion, employment and where in the world am I going with my life.
Relationships: I have many relationships in my life. There are friends, family, boyfriend, and of course the many acquaintances. When it comes to friends, I don't really have many true blue love you forever friends. From school I have only been left with around three people who I still consider good friends. Since high school I have developed friendships but it's hard. You either have to meet people through people(which sometimes you feel like you are stealing their friends), meet people at church(which I will dive into more in the religion section of this blog) or meet people at work(which the friendships sometime end when you leave that job). As for certain friendships I know that I have been truly blessed to have a few individuals in my life. I am blessed to have my best friend Kaitlyn in my life. Next Fall marks TEN years of being best friends. It's crazy to think it's been that long. She has stuck with me through thick and thin. I can talk to her about anything and am very grateful to have such a great friend. I am also blessed to have Kristen. We battled through so many things together; we don't call ourselves the River's Edge rebels for nothing! Our adventures are stacking up and it's wonderful to have someone like that in my life. Family relationships come in many shapes in forms. Some good, some bad, some ugly. Being a child of divorce the size of my family has grown to be rather large. I have a wonderful relationship with my Mom. She has been my rock throughout my life. She has always been encouraging and there for me. Don't get me wrong she was a disciplinarian and I never got away with anything but she has taken care me to the highest extent. When it comes to my relationship with my brother things have been good, bad AND ugly. My Dad things have been disappointing. You watch TV and see everyone with their amazing father-daughter relationships. I've never really had much of that with my Dad. When I was younger and spent the weekends at my dad's place he would spend most of the weekend in his carpentry shop. When he married my step mom he spent the weekend watching sports on TV or should I say falling asleep to sports on the TV. I only have a few things in common with my dad. We go to Goldeyes games, to the drag races, car shows and we also like some of the same music(oldies of course). There has never been much to talk to my Dad about. In the last few years my father has become very disapproving of the way I live my life. Some days it seems like in his eyes all I am is one big fat sinner. I dream of having one of those TV worthy father-daughter relationships but I have doubts that that time will ever come. My step mother is also on the same train as my Dad when it comes to thinking that I am a big fat sinner. Sometimes I believe that she's the one who has influenced my Dad's thinking on that topic. When it comes to my relationship with my Dad and step mom you can sum it up in one word...fake! My step siblings and extended family(step and real) I get along with great but rarely see any of them with the exception of holidays. On my Dad's side of the family there is a lot of judgement about how I live but at least they have the decency to keep it to themselves. I have a wonderful boyfriend; we've been together for almost 4 years. It's crazy to think that someone has stuck with me for this long. We have a wonderful relationship. We've bought a house, have pets and have learned each other's quirky ways. With all of these different relationships I am determined to develop deeper bonds or make deep bonds stronger. Relationships are so important and even if you sever a tie that relationship is not over it's just changed.
Religion: To many people religion is a taboo subject, cause for discussion or something graciously shared. It has been a weird part to my life. Over this last year I have dug deep and started asking questions. I think question asking has come with the judgements I have received. Between my father and the church I apparently do everything wrong. My Dad and step Mom believe that Adam and I are living in sin because we're not married and that I am not going anywhere with my life because I'm not following God's rules. I stopped going to church last Spring because I was sick of people judging me for my living situation. It's no wonder so many people run from religion when so many people judge you to your core instead of accepting you for who you are. I still have a relationship with God but I also have a lot of questions and realizations. From talking with friends we have discovered many things. If you look at the different religions of the world you will realize that all religions are based around one major figurehead. In my mind every religion is basically the same, it's just executed differently. Another major question has to do with the accuracy of the Bible. The Bible has been translated so many times that how would we know what we are reading is correct. Just this past Monday I noticed the differences between versions. I decided to go to my Life group(from church) that I had also stopped attending last spring and while doing our session we had read a passage from the Bible and every one's Bible seemed to have the passage worded differently. Normally this wouldn't be a big deal but the words used in the different versions made you look at the passage differently each time. Which one do you believe? I embrace Christianity but I still have the right to question it, don't I?
Employment: As an adult we for the most part need to be employed but it's such a cause for stress. I won't go into this section as much since I already have pretty much exhausted it in my past blogs. But here's the update on my situation. Still at BOMImed, still hating it, still sticking it out. I'm looking hard to find something better but am not finding much. I'm giving it to New Years. If I find nothing by then, there's a good chance I may negotiate my way back into WalMart(not the Photo Lab of course).
Where am I going with my life? The answer is I really don't know. I have turned a different leaf by embracing stuff and becoming a more positive, outgoing person but I still don't know what there is to do.
Other oddities of this year: The weather has been a main oddity for this year. Our summer was mainly rainy with punches of hot days and then the somber cool days. This Fall has been abnormally warm. It's freakin' November and there's not a single lick of snow on the ground.
Other things to note: The death toll for family and friends has been way down from last year; thank goodness! I must say that two funerals is way better than the 4plus that I went to last year. Still missing my grandparents though.
I minorly picked up sports. Played softball; sort of. I don't think my team liked me much though; most likely because I sucked. But that's there fault for not holding practices.
Next year is only six weeks away. I think I still have more discovering to do this year and am excited to see what 2010 brings. I don't even know if this blog really made sense but that's OK because at least I wrote it. And it only really has to make sense to me. If it makes sense to you that's just a bonus.
Still hoping for snow. Hopefully Santa doesn't get lost if we have no snow for Christmas. Word of advice: Don't leave your Christmas shopping to the last minute; just because there's no snow doesn't mean there will be no Christmas.
Relationships: I have many relationships in my life. There are friends, family, boyfriend, and of course the many acquaintances. When it comes to friends, I don't really have many true blue love you forever friends. From school I have only been left with around three people who I still consider good friends. Since high school I have developed friendships but it's hard. You either have to meet people through people(which sometimes you feel like you are stealing their friends), meet people at church(which I will dive into more in the religion section of this blog) or meet people at work(which the friendships sometime end when you leave that job). As for certain friendships I know that I have been truly blessed to have a few individuals in my life. I am blessed to have my best friend Kaitlyn in my life. Next Fall marks TEN years of being best friends. It's crazy to think it's been that long. She has stuck with me through thick and thin. I can talk to her about anything and am very grateful to have such a great friend. I am also blessed to have Kristen. We battled through so many things together; we don't call ourselves the River's Edge rebels for nothing! Our adventures are stacking up and it's wonderful to have someone like that in my life. Family relationships come in many shapes in forms. Some good, some bad, some ugly. Being a child of divorce the size of my family has grown to be rather large. I have a wonderful relationship with my Mom. She has been my rock throughout my life. She has always been encouraging and there for me. Don't get me wrong she was a disciplinarian and I never got away with anything but she has taken care me to the highest extent. When it comes to my relationship with my brother things have been good, bad AND ugly. My Dad things have been disappointing. You watch TV and see everyone with their amazing father-daughter relationships. I've never really had much of that with my Dad. When I was younger and spent the weekends at my dad's place he would spend most of the weekend in his carpentry shop. When he married my step mom he spent the weekend watching sports on TV or should I say falling asleep to sports on the TV. I only have a few things in common with my dad. We go to Goldeyes games, to the drag races, car shows and we also like some of the same music(oldies of course). There has never been much to talk to my Dad about. In the last few years my father has become very disapproving of the way I live my life. Some days it seems like in his eyes all I am is one big fat sinner. I dream of having one of those TV worthy father-daughter relationships but I have doubts that that time will ever come. My step mother is also on the same train as my Dad when it comes to thinking that I am a big fat sinner. Sometimes I believe that she's the one who has influenced my Dad's thinking on that topic. When it comes to my relationship with my Dad and step mom you can sum it up in one word...fake! My step siblings and extended family(step and real) I get along with great but rarely see any of them with the exception of holidays. On my Dad's side of the family there is a lot of judgement about how I live but at least they have the decency to keep it to themselves. I have a wonderful boyfriend; we've been together for almost 4 years. It's crazy to think that someone has stuck with me for this long. We have a wonderful relationship. We've bought a house, have pets and have learned each other's quirky ways. With all of these different relationships I am determined to develop deeper bonds or make deep bonds stronger. Relationships are so important and even if you sever a tie that relationship is not over it's just changed.
Religion: To many people religion is a taboo subject, cause for discussion or something graciously shared. It has been a weird part to my life. Over this last year I have dug deep and started asking questions. I think question asking has come with the judgements I have received. Between my father and the church I apparently do everything wrong. My Dad and step Mom believe that Adam and I are living in sin because we're not married and that I am not going anywhere with my life because I'm not following God's rules. I stopped going to church last Spring because I was sick of people judging me for my living situation. It's no wonder so many people run from religion when so many people judge you to your core instead of accepting you for who you are. I still have a relationship with God but I also have a lot of questions and realizations. From talking with friends we have discovered many things. If you look at the different religions of the world you will realize that all religions are based around one major figurehead. In my mind every religion is basically the same, it's just executed differently. Another major question has to do with the accuracy of the Bible. The Bible has been translated so many times that how would we know what we are reading is correct. Just this past Monday I noticed the differences between versions. I decided to go to my Life group(from church) that I had also stopped attending last spring and while doing our session we had read a passage from the Bible and every one's Bible seemed to have the passage worded differently. Normally this wouldn't be a big deal but the words used in the different versions made you look at the passage differently each time. Which one do you believe? I embrace Christianity but I still have the right to question it, don't I?
Employment: As an adult we for the most part need to be employed but it's such a cause for stress. I won't go into this section as much since I already have pretty much exhausted it in my past blogs. But here's the update on my situation. Still at BOMImed, still hating it, still sticking it out. I'm looking hard to find something better but am not finding much. I'm giving it to New Years. If I find nothing by then, there's a good chance I may negotiate my way back into WalMart(not the Photo Lab of course).
Where am I going with my life? The answer is I really don't know. I have turned a different leaf by embracing stuff and becoming a more positive, outgoing person but I still don't know what there is to do.
Other oddities of this year: The weather has been a main oddity for this year. Our summer was mainly rainy with punches of hot days and then the somber cool days. This Fall has been abnormally warm. It's freakin' November and there's not a single lick of snow on the ground.
Other things to note: The death toll for family and friends has been way down from last year; thank goodness! I must say that two funerals is way better than the 4plus that I went to last year. Still missing my grandparents though.
I minorly picked up sports. Played softball; sort of. I don't think my team liked me much though; most likely because I sucked. But that's there fault for not holding practices.
Next year is only six weeks away. I think I still have more discovering to do this year and am excited to see what 2010 brings. I don't even know if this blog really made sense but that's OK because at least I wrote it. And it only really has to make sense to me. If it makes sense to you that's just a bonus.
Still hoping for snow. Hopefully Santa doesn't get lost if we have no snow for Christmas. Word of advice: Don't leave your Christmas shopping to the last minute; just because there's no snow doesn't mean there will be no Christmas.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Biting My Own Tongue
As I read my previous positivity boasting notes I start think to myself, "Why am I not listening to what I have said?". Job searching is taking its toll on me big time. As hard as I try to push the stress aside, it's been poking it's nasty little head through the curtain. The stress of sitting around doing nothing everyday and the disappointment of not finding decent job openings is really getting to me. These last few days have felt like such downers for me. I really need to pick myself up again before all the pieces are spilled on the floor. I need to escape this job so I can keep my sanity! Why should my friends and family have to deal with my constant griping about a job I hate? But right now that is the main topic of my life...When did my life become centered around work? If I am going to be stuck at this job I need a solution!! I think the solution will be Christmas. I know that right now you're thinking to yourself that Christmas is 2 months away. Well I am the over planner of the century and I will focus on planning for Christmas. There are Christmas gifts to buy, Christmas cards to buy and write, Christmas gifts to make, parties to plan, cookies to bake and so much more. Maybe if I put my energy into Christmas all the other junk will seem insignificant. Plus only a few more weeks until I can deem it not too early to start decorating!! Yay!!
In other news I am thinking of taking an on the side job of clowning. It will probably be difficult at first because you have to decide what type of clown you want to be and how to set a small business type thing around it but I think I can make it work. With my love for acting and being silly I think that clowning will come naturally to me and if not then I am no worse for wear. I think that it would be a super fun way to make a little extra cash on the side.
OK so I am boring today. I thought that I would have more to say but apparently I really, really don't. My hope for the next few days is SNOW. Keep thinking snowy thoughts, it would be a wonderful pick me up!!
In other news I am thinking of taking an on the side job of clowning. It will probably be difficult at first because you have to decide what type of clown you want to be and how to set a small business type thing around it but I think I can make it work. With my love for acting and being silly I think that clowning will come naturally to me and if not then I am no worse for wear. I think that it would be a super fun way to make a little extra cash on the side.
OK so I am boring today. I thought that I would have more to say but apparently I really, really don't. My hope for the next few days is SNOW. Keep thinking snowy thoughts, it would be a wonderful pick me up!!
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Not in High Demand
Today I feel that I am not in high demand. As I think over my job history I realize that many of my jobs have been given to me because I have either known someone or I was at the end of my rope and applied for a job I really did not want. Let's look at the history:
Safeway: Mom's friend introduced me to manager when I brought in my application; didn't really want to work there but it was something that was relatively not crappy for a first job.
CHVN: Was recommended by one of my instructors; loved the job for the most part though.
Archway: Last resort; hence why I didn't even last a week
Wal-Mart: Last resort; hadn't had a job in like 2 months and needed something so I settled for the Photo Lab...liked it for the most part but ran into frequent issues with my dislike for the way the management in the store was
Selkirk Florist: Knew the person who was quitting and she suggested me for the job. I enjoyed floral but there was way too much down time.
South Beach Casino: Last resort; needed to be doing something but apparently I hate waitressing..or at least I hated it there.
MTS Connect: Last resort; needed a job so dropped off resume on a whim...loved the girls but the job itself was a bit of a waste and then also the new owner freaked me out.
BOMImed: Mom knew my now manager; thought the job would be great but now I feel as if I am going brain dead just by working here.
Out of all the jobs I have had so far CHVN was pretty much the only one that I really wanted and enjoyed.
The other weird thing is going to an interview. When I go to interviews I tend to get vibes about whether or not the interview has gone well or not. For the jobs that I have actually been hired for there were generally good vibes. There has also been many, many, many jobs that I have gone to interviews for and left with a good vibe and then have been shot down horribly. Worst thing ever by the way. Example: had an interview at U Weight Loss Clinic...job sounded great and the interview went very well. Was called for a second interview which also went well...a few days later received an email stating that I was not a "successful candidate at this time". I have had so many of these great interviews that these people just don't want to hire me for. I think I am an excellent interviewee but maybe I'm just being too sure of myself. When it comes to the dreaded job search I can be way to picky; as Adam puts it "I just don't like to work". That statement is not true even though sometimes I think it is. When I look at jobs I am looking at description, wage, hours and location, which everyone looks at but it seems if one thing doesn't quite fit I pass over it. You get to the point where you're not sure what exactly you even want anymore. While job searching online today I came across a position to be one of Santa's helpers in a mall. I would LOVE to do the job and think I would be quite good at it. The hold off on applying right now is the fact that I would only be employed for 2 months and then come Christmas Day I will have nothing. Do I really want to be in that place again? Right now I am thinking that I would be fit for retail but the thing is, is that a step back? Or if I did get into retail I could start at the bottom and work my way up; make it a career. That would be smart and I have the brains to do it; I just need to get out of these jobs that I never have a chance to use my brain on a regular basis. Retail would probably be a good choice for me because it doesn't fall into any of the categories that I deem undesirable in a job. I am picky towards many jobs.
Bars: Would love to mix drinks but wouldn't be able to handle drunks
Waitressing: Great service skills but hate cleaning up after people and have a hard time dealing with people getting angry with me..and drunks
Call Centre: Can't handle people yelling at me, have a hard time with accents and get a headache from wearing a headset
Old People: Love old people but can't deal with cleaning up after their bodily functions
Kids: Love kids but only when they behave for at least the most part; also don't like cleaning up after bodily functions of theirs
Cleaning and driving for a job are also out of the picture.
Management: I think I would be awesome at it; just need to work on toughening myself up a bit.
There are also the jobs that I want to do but would only make pennies at which would be fine if I didn't have to drive distances to get to them. Example: broadcasting or acting jobs.
So I guess I am picky..very picky apparently. So maybe I should just try to get onto a reality show and make a large quantity of money. Big Brother here I come...but do they let Canadians in?
Hopefully one of these days I will be in high demand and no one will think twice about hiring me. For now I will just spread the word and hope my friends will keep there eyes and ears open for employment that will suit Morgan. I want to use my brain everyone so keep your career radar antennas up!! I need all the help I can get!!
Also we're crossing or fingers for some snow....all of the little bit of snow that we had melted and I need another pick me up. Enjoy a hot cup of cocoa by a warm fire, maybe that will encourage the snow to come(no fire, just use a warm blanket).
Safeway: Mom's friend introduced me to manager when I brought in my application; didn't really want to work there but it was something that was relatively not crappy for a first job.
CHVN: Was recommended by one of my instructors; loved the job for the most part though.
Archway: Last resort; hence why I didn't even last a week
Wal-Mart: Last resort; hadn't had a job in like 2 months and needed something so I settled for the Photo Lab...liked it for the most part but ran into frequent issues with my dislike for the way the management in the store was
Selkirk Florist: Knew the person who was quitting and she suggested me for the job. I enjoyed floral but there was way too much down time.
South Beach Casino: Last resort; needed to be doing something but apparently I hate waitressing..or at least I hated it there.
MTS Connect: Last resort; needed a job so dropped off resume on a whim...loved the girls but the job itself was a bit of a waste and then also the new owner freaked me out.
BOMImed: Mom knew my now manager; thought the job would be great but now I feel as if I am going brain dead just by working here.
Out of all the jobs I have had so far CHVN was pretty much the only one that I really wanted and enjoyed.
The other weird thing is going to an interview. When I go to interviews I tend to get vibes about whether or not the interview has gone well or not. For the jobs that I have actually been hired for there were generally good vibes. There has also been many, many, many jobs that I have gone to interviews for and left with a good vibe and then have been shot down horribly. Worst thing ever by the way. Example: had an interview at U Weight Loss Clinic...job sounded great and the interview went very well. Was called for a second interview which also went well...a few days later received an email stating that I was not a "successful candidate at this time". I have had so many of these great interviews that these people just don't want to hire me for. I think I am an excellent interviewee but maybe I'm just being too sure of myself. When it comes to the dreaded job search I can be way to picky; as Adam puts it "I just don't like to work". That statement is not true even though sometimes I think it is. When I look at jobs I am looking at description, wage, hours and location, which everyone looks at but it seems if one thing doesn't quite fit I pass over it. You get to the point where you're not sure what exactly you even want anymore. While job searching online today I came across a position to be one of Santa's helpers in a mall. I would LOVE to do the job and think I would be quite good at it. The hold off on applying right now is the fact that I would only be employed for 2 months and then come Christmas Day I will have nothing. Do I really want to be in that place again? Right now I am thinking that I would be fit for retail but the thing is, is that a step back? Or if I did get into retail I could start at the bottom and work my way up; make it a career. That would be smart and I have the brains to do it; I just need to get out of these jobs that I never have a chance to use my brain on a regular basis. Retail would probably be a good choice for me because it doesn't fall into any of the categories that I deem undesirable in a job. I am picky towards many jobs.
Bars: Would love to mix drinks but wouldn't be able to handle drunks
Waitressing: Great service skills but hate cleaning up after people and have a hard time dealing with people getting angry with me..and drunks
Call Centre: Can't handle people yelling at me, have a hard time with accents and get a headache from wearing a headset
Old People: Love old people but can't deal with cleaning up after their bodily functions
Kids: Love kids but only when they behave for at least the most part; also don't like cleaning up after bodily functions of theirs
Cleaning and driving for a job are also out of the picture.
Management: I think I would be awesome at it; just need to work on toughening myself up a bit.
There are also the jobs that I want to do but would only make pennies at which would be fine if I didn't have to drive distances to get to them. Example: broadcasting or acting jobs.
So I guess I am picky..very picky apparently. So maybe I should just try to get onto a reality show and make a large quantity of money. Big Brother here I come...but do they let Canadians in?
Hopefully one of these days I will be in high demand and no one will think twice about hiring me. For now I will just spread the word and hope my friends will keep there eyes and ears open for employment that will suit Morgan. I want to use my brain everyone so keep your career radar antennas up!! I need all the help I can get!!
Also we're crossing or fingers for some snow....all of the little bit of snow that we had melted and I need another pick me up. Enjoy a hot cup of cocoa by a warm fire, maybe that will encourage the snow to come(no fire, just use a warm blanket).
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Let's Get Down & Chilly!!-Wasting the Day Away
Do you ever feel like you're doing nothing with yourself and like you could be doing something much better? That's how I feel right now when I am at work. My job has become a game to me, "How to waste the day away and not get caught". It's not the most fun game in the world but it is what it is. I sit at a desk Monday to Friday with literally nothing at all to do. When I first came into this job it was everything I had hoped for but rather quickly turned into my worst nightmare...nothing! If you combine my entire weeks work you will realize that when put together my tasks equal one day(sometimes not even that) of a normal persons job tasks. I end up spending my days on the Internet blogging, Facebooking, or random Google searching or texting my friends. Since I am not supposed to be doing either I have to make sure I keep my phone under my desk and that I minimize my screen every time I hear approaching footsteps. I even have gone as far as learning every one's footfalls so I know who is approaching and if I need to close my screen rather than minimize. Don't get me wrong, I have tried to create actual work tasks for myself but I have done so much that there is nothing left for me to do. I ask my boss if there is anything that needs to be done and she usually says no or hands me two pieces of paper that need to be filed. This isn't a job, it's a waste of time. I need to be doing something. I miss working with customers and interacting with other employees that actually want to interact with you. Therefore I am on the job hunt again. I hate being on the job hunt but I am so sick of these nothing jobs where I sit on my butt day after day. Tonight the first official stop on my hunt will be U Weight Loss Centre. I submitted an application this past Friday and was called for an interview Saturday. We shall see how the interview goes this evening. I am predicting good things and have my list of questions prepared to make sure I get as much knowledge of the job as possible. I see many pro's to this job and hoping that I do not see any con's. If I do manage to get this job I will feel bad leaving my current one. I think my boss may have gone out on a limb for me because she knows my Mom. There even are a few people that I will miss seeing everyday but I need to do what's best for me and right now BOMImed is certainly not best for me. I am keeping my chin up because I know that there is a job out there that is just waiting for me!
A chilly but fabulous long weekend just past. I truly wish that it could have been longer. I am completely worn out but I think that just shows that I took the long weekend and ran with it!! The weekend began before the week was even complete. Thursday night we had friends over for pizza and beer! This was the beginning of the late nights. Thursday was great though because I met one of Adam's friends girlfriend Jamie and I believe we have a good friendship in our future. Friday night I headed over to Jamie's place to hang out. It was a rather eventful evening but unfortunately I was feeling a tad under the weather which prevented me from having as much fun as I could have! As they continued to another party I wandered on home in the slightly chilly snowy night. Saturday morning brought a cookie explosion! My great pal Kristen came over to escape the hurricane that occurred in her apartment and we baked over four dozen sugar cookies. They were Halloween themed and we even decorated them!! It was an excellent morning of baking and girl talk. Saturday evening brought a birthday meal for our pal Les at Tony Roma's. The company was superb but the meal was a disappointment. I ordered a basic chicken fingers and fries..they were horrible; way over salted. Adam had steak and it was flavourless. The food cost a good chunk and it was not worth it at all. And then there was Sunday. It was a nice laid back kind of day. I picked up the groceries and then came home and just relaxed. Our first Thanksgiving meal of the weekend was that evening! We headed over to Adam's parents to enjoy a delicious turkey dinner!! Monday had it's ups and downs. We headed to my Dad's place for lunch where we enjoyed a wonderful meal and then Adam and I cleaned my junk out of my old bedroom there. I found my Eeyore Jammie's!!! Once we got home we were greeted with the pleasant surprise of a furnace that crapped out. But at least it didn't happen in the dead of winter, right? Later yesterday night my bestest bud in the entire world , Kaitlyn came over with her father the "Jack of all Trades". Daddio Pankiw may be an electrician by day but he's superman by night. He was able to diagnose what was wrong and is coming tonight to fix it at a cheaper rate than any furnace man would charge us. I love that man!!! It was mildly chilly in the house last night with no furnace but at least we had our little radiator and down filled comforter from our chilly days spent in the summer kitchen last year!
It's a short work week due to Thanksgiving and I am predicting a promising week. With the way things are looking up all might be well very soon. I have the possibility of a new job to look forward to, visiting with good friends and the execution of my hair; I'm chopping it off...all off. Well not all but it's getting short I promise you that!!
Today was brought to you by the letter "P"...Keep warm and experience things!!
A chilly but fabulous long weekend just past. I truly wish that it could have been longer. I am completely worn out but I think that just shows that I took the long weekend and ran with it!! The weekend began before the week was even complete. Thursday night we had friends over for pizza and beer! This was the beginning of the late nights. Thursday was great though because I met one of Adam's friends girlfriend Jamie and I believe we have a good friendship in our future. Friday night I headed over to Jamie's place to hang out. It was a rather eventful evening but unfortunately I was feeling a tad under the weather which prevented me from having as much fun as I could have! As they continued to another party I wandered on home in the slightly chilly snowy night. Saturday morning brought a cookie explosion! My great pal Kristen came over to escape the hurricane that occurred in her apartment and we baked over four dozen sugar cookies. They were Halloween themed and we even decorated them!! It was an excellent morning of baking and girl talk. Saturday evening brought a birthday meal for our pal Les at Tony Roma's. The company was superb but the meal was a disappointment. I ordered a basic chicken fingers and fries..they were horrible; way over salted. Adam had steak and it was flavourless. The food cost a good chunk and it was not worth it at all. And then there was Sunday. It was a nice laid back kind of day. I picked up the groceries and then came home and just relaxed. Our first Thanksgiving meal of the weekend was that evening! We headed over to Adam's parents to enjoy a delicious turkey dinner!! Monday had it's ups and downs. We headed to my Dad's place for lunch where we enjoyed a wonderful meal and then Adam and I cleaned my junk out of my old bedroom there. I found my Eeyore Jammie's!!! Once we got home we were greeted with the pleasant surprise of a furnace that crapped out. But at least it didn't happen in the dead of winter, right? Later yesterday night my bestest bud in the entire world , Kaitlyn came over with her father the "Jack of all Trades". Daddio Pankiw may be an electrician by day but he's superman by night. He was able to diagnose what was wrong and is coming tonight to fix it at a cheaper rate than any furnace man would charge us. I love that man!!! It was mildly chilly in the house last night with no furnace but at least we had our little radiator and down filled comforter from our chilly days spent in the summer kitchen last year!
It's a short work week due to Thanksgiving and I am predicting a promising week. With the way things are looking up all might be well very soon. I have the possibility of a new job to look forward to, visiting with good friends and the execution of my hair; I'm chopping it off...all off. Well not all but it's getting short I promise you that!!
Today was brought to you by the letter "P"...Keep warm and experience things!!
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Embracing Something: Letting the cards fall and making things positive
Lately I've been thinking about the ability to embrace something. There should always be something that you embrace; whether it be physical or mental. Embracing can be thought of in many ways. One way is the physical act of person to person contact; mainly a hug. But the main way that I see embracing is forming a love for something(s). I find that embracing is a way to find the good in something that is otherwise seen as bad. Example: Cooler weather; most people get frustrated or disappointed because they don't want winter to come. They would rather it stay summer all year round. These people should either move to a warmer climate or learn to embrace the better things/events of the season. This year I have decided to embrace "the hat". I have never been one to wear hats during the winter unless I was actually doing stuff outside but this year hats will be worn. I have already begun my collection of winter head wear. So far it is mostly little head hugging tuques but more styles of head wear will certainly come into play. Last year the temperatures were freaking freezing but instead of hiding inside away from the cold I whipped out my grandmother's mink coat! This year I encourage you to embrace winter. Take time to smell the snow and do outdoor activities. Bonfires aren't just for summer you know! Take out the ice skates, sleds, and snow pants. Make this your year to embrace winter! I know I will!
We've embraced winter, snow, hats and colder weather now to embrace creativity. When one thinks creativity you mainly go straight to art but creativity comes in many forms and is something I love to embrace! Whether it's creating art, baked goods, food, or even this blog creating is a good thing. It gives you a way to express yourself, let loose or even just relax. For Christmas this year many people will be getting gifts that I create. I will be making everything from scarves and dishcloths to paintings to baked goods. The receivers of these gifts will get to experience the joy that I have had making their gifts. It's in us all to create. No one can say they are not creative. Everyone can create something; after all we were created in God's image and He's the creator of all things.
Embrace holidays. Holidays are a time to be with family and treasure your time together. There are some people out there that try to make sure that they work on holidays so they get a better paycheck or so that they can actually avoid their family. I can see that the extra money is nice but why waste an opportunity to be with family when all you're doing is severing the relationships you have with these people? So don't pick up that extra shift if you don't have to, spend time with the people you were born to. And if you really don't want to embrace your family at least embrace the food they're serving you! If you somehow can resist holiday food there MUST be something wrong with you.
Embrace LIFE! No one should ever want to end their life. Life is one of the most precious gifts that has ever been given to us and we should truly embrace it. In this life we have been given the opportunity to embrace the world around us and there really is so much that we can embrace; so go out and do it. Embrace life, embrace the world!
At this point in my life I am taking time to embrace the world around me. Why see the negative when you can just as easily pull the positive out? I'm not saying that you're not allowed to have a bad day here and there but don't waste your life surrounded by bad days. If that bad day sneaks in cry if you must, throw back some chocolate or a wobbly pop and just push that bad day out the door so that tomorrow will be better. We all need to learn to take criticism with a grain of salt, even me. Find something you love and embrace it! It doesn't matter whether you embrace one thing or one million things; just EMBRACE!!
Now that you have read this get out there and embrace life!
We've embraced winter, snow, hats and colder weather now to embrace creativity. When one thinks creativity you mainly go straight to art but creativity comes in many forms and is something I love to embrace! Whether it's creating art, baked goods, food, or even this blog creating is a good thing. It gives you a way to express yourself, let loose or even just relax. For Christmas this year many people will be getting gifts that I create. I will be making everything from scarves and dishcloths to paintings to baked goods. The receivers of these gifts will get to experience the joy that I have had making their gifts. It's in us all to create. No one can say they are not creative. Everyone can create something; after all we were created in God's image and He's the creator of all things.
Embrace holidays. Holidays are a time to be with family and treasure your time together. There are some people out there that try to make sure that they work on holidays so they get a better paycheck or so that they can actually avoid their family. I can see that the extra money is nice but why waste an opportunity to be with family when all you're doing is severing the relationships you have with these people? So don't pick up that extra shift if you don't have to, spend time with the people you were born to. And if you really don't want to embrace your family at least embrace the food they're serving you! If you somehow can resist holiday food there MUST be something wrong with you.
Embrace LIFE! No one should ever want to end their life. Life is one of the most precious gifts that has ever been given to us and we should truly embrace it. In this life we have been given the opportunity to embrace the world around us and there really is so much that we can embrace; so go out and do it. Embrace life, embrace the world!
At this point in my life I am taking time to embrace the world around me. Why see the negative when you can just as easily pull the positive out? I'm not saying that you're not allowed to have a bad day here and there but don't waste your life surrounded by bad days. If that bad day sneaks in cry if you must, throw back some chocolate or a wobbly pop and just push that bad day out the door so that tomorrow will be better. We all need to learn to take criticism with a grain of salt, even me. Find something you love and embrace it! It doesn't matter whether you embrace one thing or one million things; just EMBRACE!!
Now that you have read this get out there and embrace life!
Friday, October 2, 2009
Blogging, Bogging, 1,2,3
Autumn is taking me into its full embrace! I love it!! This week has been excellent Autumn embracing weather! I have been able to pull out my pirate boots, cozy sweaters, fuzzy socks, warm scarves and even a wonderful tuque...I never know the correct spelling for tuque but apparently this is a correct variation so I'll stick with it. From Monday until Wednesday this week Adam and I decided that it would be nice to take after dinner walks. It has been wonderful! Gypsy(the dog) loves it too of course! Last night we did not venture out on a walk though because I had a crappy day and also supper took longer than planned to make so it was already dark by the time that we ate. Yesterday was an interesting day to say the least. I was at work and someone came up to me and says, "Morgan you have a flat tire, why don't you go put air in it" So I drive to the nearest gas station and had to take the roll of a stereotypical woman of course. I have never put air in my tires because I have never had a flat so I asked the guy if he would come out and put air in my tire. So the guy who I found out also goes by the name Morgan comes out and tells me, "The reason your tire is flat is because there is a nail stuck in it". Oh great! Luckily he asked me if I would like him to change my tire for me. I of course accepted because a)I have never changed a tire and b)I was in a skirt. Reason "b" may also be the reason why he offered to change the tire but whatever it got done! I then drop my tire off at Sturgeon Tire to get fixed and about an hour or so later I receive a phone call saying that my tire cannot be fixed. No good at all....Then five minutes later they call again to say that they have a used tire that will fit my car that they will sell to me for cheap. That was the shinier lining of my experience I guess. But what a long stressful day for me. When I got home last night I decided to make soup for supper. Apparently I put too much stuff in though because by the time it was ready there was no liquid left..not even enough for it to be considered stew. We ate it anyways and froze the leftovers so when we do want soup all we have to do is add liquid and heat it up!!
The weekend is thrilling. It's kind of nice that there is nothing planned this weekend and Adam will actually be home for once as far as I know. This weekend I decided that I will embrace baking with pumpkin. My first attempt will be a pumpkin muffin. I am very eager to find out how they will turn out!! Tonight Adam and I are going to go out for supper. I think that it will be nice to actually get out just the two of us! We're going to attempt to go to one of my favorite restaurants in Selkirk which is Barney Gargles. Every time we go there we always end up turning around and going elsewhere because the line up is too long but I think today I want to stick it out; I really miss their food!
Something that I am enjoying about this cooler weather is the fact that it's not too warm to drink tea! Everyday when I come to work now I make myself a nice cup of tea. It makes me so relaxed for my day. Yesterday I didn't get to finish my cup of tea before the whole tire ordeal so maybe that's why I had a less than good kind of day.
I cannot believe how fast the months are flying by. It's October now!! Thanksgiving is just around the corner!! I am still debating about whether or not I want to make a Thanksgiving dinner. I did last year and it turned out wonderfully but last year I didn't have to pay for all the ingredients because we were still living at Adam's parents place. I at least am guaranteed a dinner at my Dad's place. Just 29 short days until Halloween! Yay!! This weekend I am going to pick up the pieces for my witch costume as well as some decorations for the house!! I am so excited! The one not so exciting thing is Adam works and so far I cannot find anyone who wants to come hand out candy with me. I guess I will just have to do it myself!! It's so great that I even have a black cat to go with my costume!!
83 days until Christmas!! Christmas is one of my favorite times of year. I love all of the lights, decorations and of course the true meaning of Christmas. It's such a magical time of year..I know that that sounds very cliched but I still love it! This year I have decided that for the most part I want to make all of our gifts. I am going to do knitting, baking and other craft type gifts. We're still going to buy gifts for our parents and maybe throw gift cards in for the siblings but for the most part I want to give out handmade gifts. I am a very materialistic person, I am ashamed to admit but I still love handmade gifts. It's more precious because it shows that the person actually put thought and time into your gift instead of just throwing something into a bag. I am so excited for Christmas baking and decorating. So much fun!! I am still trying to figure out a way to prevent the cats from climbing the Christmas tree. Two Christmases ago Adam and I had bought a brand new artificial Christmas tree and the day that I set it up I had gone out with my Mom and came home to a tree that the cat had climbed and scattered all the ornaments throughout the house! It was a disaster. We tied the tree to the wall and even sprayed it with this anti-bite stuff that we thought might fend off the cat but it ended up that the cat liked the spray...It was an interesting Christmas season! Last year we didn't really have this problem because we were living in the summer kitchen and only had room for the tiny tree and there was so much stuff surrounding it that Dyna could not climb it! But this year we are in a house and I am not sure what to do yet. One option I have considered is an electric train but with that the train would always have to be one and also Dyna/Pancake could probably just be sneaky and sneak over the track in the area where that train currently is not. Second option is finding motion detector toys to situate around the tree..But that also could be an annoying option and also most motion sensing toys are only set off by vibration or sound which cats generally do not make when they're moving around...unless you're my Mom's cat Louie who is constantly meowing. Third option is to build a gift bag wall around the tree. I would have to buy the giant bags and tape them together so they can't sneak in between. So many options but I think I may go with the gift bag option because it's cheaper and still looks decorative. Some people do the baby gate thing but I find that tacky and want something that still looks like it's meant to be there. Well at least I still have like 2 months to decide. Well actually less than two months because I generally will put up the tree a couple weeks before then end of November...yes I am crazy if that's what you are thinking!
Let's see..words of wisdom for today...we'll go with Take time to cuddle with someone under a nice warm blanket!! Indeed!!
The weekend is thrilling. It's kind of nice that there is nothing planned this weekend and Adam will actually be home for once as far as I know. This weekend I decided that I will embrace baking with pumpkin. My first attempt will be a pumpkin muffin. I am very eager to find out how they will turn out!! Tonight Adam and I are going to go out for supper. I think that it will be nice to actually get out just the two of us! We're going to attempt to go to one of my favorite restaurants in Selkirk which is Barney Gargles. Every time we go there we always end up turning around and going elsewhere because the line up is too long but I think today I want to stick it out; I really miss their food!
Something that I am enjoying about this cooler weather is the fact that it's not too warm to drink tea! Everyday when I come to work now I make myself a nice cup of tea. It makes me so relaxed for my day. Yesterday I didn't get to finish my cup of tea before the whole tire ordeal so maybe that's why I had a less than good kind of day.
I cannot believe how fast the months are flying by. It's October now!! Thanksgiving is just around the corner!! I am still debating about whether or not I want to make a Thanksgiving dinner. I did last year and it turned out wonderfully but last year I didn't have to pay for all the ingredients because we were still living at Adam's parents place. I at least am guaranteed a dinner at my Dad's place. Just 29 short days until Halloween! Yay!! This weekend I am going to pick up the pieces for my witch costume as well as some decorations for the house!! I am so excited! The one not so exciting thing is Adam works and so far I cannot find anyone who wants to come hand out candy with me. I guess I will just have to do it myself!! It's so great that I even have a black cat to go with my costume!!
83 days until Christmas!! Christmas is one of my favorite times of year. I love all of the lights, decorations and of course the true meaning of Christmas. It's such a magical time of year..I know that that sounds very cliched but I still love it! This year I have decided that for the most part I want to make all of our gifts. I am going to do knitting, baking and other craft type gifts. We're still going to buy gifts for our parents and maybe throw gift cards in for the siblings but for the most part I want to give out handmade gifts. I am a very materialistic person, I am ashamed to admit but I still love handmade gifts. It's more precious because it shows that the person actually put thought and time into your gift instead of just throwing something into a bag. I am so excited for Christmas baking and decorating. So much fun!! I am still trying to figure out a way to prevent the cats from climbing the Christmas tree. Two Christmases ago Adam and I had bought a brand new artificial Christmas tree and the day that I set it up I had gone out with my Mom and came home to a tree that the cat had climbed and scattered all the ornaments throughout the house! It was a disaster. We tied the tree to the wall and even sprayed it with this anti-bite stuff that we thought might fend off the cat but it ended up that the cat liked the spray...It was an interesting Christmas season! Last year we didn't really have this problem because we were living in the summer kitchen and only had room for the tiny tree and there was so much stuff surrounding it that Dyna could not climb it! But this year we are in a house and I am not sure what to do yet. One option I have considered is an electric train but with that the train would always have to be one and also Dyna/Pancake could probably just be sneaky and sneak over the track in the area where that train currently is not. Second option is finding motion detector toys to situate around the tree..But that also could be an annoying option and also most motion sensing toys are only set off by vibration or sound which cats generally do not make when they're moving around...unless you're my Mom's cat Louie who is constantly meowing. Third option is to build a gift bag wall around the tree. I would have to buy the giant bags and tape them together so they can't sneak in between. So many options but I think I may go with the gift bag option because it's cheaper and still looks decorative. Some people do the baby gate thing but I find that tacky and want something that still looks like it's meant to be there. Well at least I still have like 2 months to decide. Well actually less than two months because I generally will put up the tree a couple weeks before then end of November...yes I am crazy if that's what you are thinking!
Let's see..words of wisdom for today...we'll go with Take time to cuddle with someone under a nice warm blanket!! Indeed!!
Friday, September 25, 2009
Decisions of Many and Excitement of Plenty
My question of the day is: What do you do when your schooling has led you nowhere? It's a valid question, isn't it?
Graduated broadcasting school two years ago...crazy to think it's been that long. It has taken me nowhere. Upon completion of Academy of Broadcasting I had landed a job as Summer Events Coordinator at CHVN; that job lasted four months and then summer came to an end and they said, "See ya!" even though they had promised me employment come the end of summer. So that was August 2007 and since then there has been no room for me in the broadcasting field here in Manitoba. I have been to multiple interviews but everyone has said that I either do not have the experience they are needing or my vision is fogged by my want to do on air. People have said that I have not looked hard enough because I am not willing to move for the job. Well I'm sorry that I would rather not leave my family, boyfriend and friends to move to middle of nowhere far from anywhere radio station that I would be paid pennies at. I want to write commercials or talk on the air but because I haven't gained the experience they push me aside. I believe myself to be a talented writer but all potential employers see is the girl with no experience. It's discouraging when you haven't been able to secure a job in your chosen field for two entire years.
So your mind wanders to all the "what if" possibilities. Should I have gone to school for something else? Should I have declared a major in high school instead of just doing everything? Or am I destined to work at nothing jobs? I've been asked by people if I have ever considered going back to school. I most certainly have and I have made many excuses putting it off. My main excuse is money. I have debt that needs to be paid off before considering going back to school. Once money is more settled in our household, going back to school may be an option. Another option once debt is more settled is to just work part time and rely on the man to bring home the bacon...but I think we'll wait a good amount of years before we come to that. If school does become an option I think I would want to go into something like event planning or baking. But not just baking, something more than that, like cake decorating...that would be very cool and an enjoyable job!!
There are so many decisions in this regard that you don't really know where to start. The time will come and I will pursue something great and it will make up for these many years of pushing my way to the top. I will make my way in this world just you wait and see!!
On to brighter and shinier news...it's Friday! Thank goodness, I thought the weekend would never come...I know that sounds cliche. Tonight will be the kick off to this glorious fall weekend! Unfortunately Adam works tonight so tonight will be pizza, popcorn and TV on the Internet(aka Survivor and Grey's Anatomy). I also will be baking birthday cupcakes for my wonderful man who will be celebrating his 25th birthday tomorrow! Tonight will be a nice relaxation period to store up my energy for Saturday! Tomorrow will include icing the cupcakes, cleaning the house and preparing for the birthday fun! We are going to celebrate with an "Around the World T-shirt" party which will include a bonfire and tasty treats. It will be so nice having a bonfire now that the weather is finally cooling down!! Sunday Adam is going hunting so I am still undecided on what I will do. I think I may paint so watercolor pictures or who knows maybe it will just be a movie day! Whatever happens this weekend, it will be great so I can't wait!
According to Environment Canada the weather is dropping down to my long awaited Autumn temperatures! So excited!!! The sweaters and scarves will come out and you can't even imagine how pumped I am for that!! I have already washed all of my scarves, mitts and hats to remove the awful musty smell so they're ready to go and so am I!! Yay Fall!!!
As for kitten status...Pancake has been M.I.A. for the last few days and is still not at our house. Yesterday I went to my mom's and all of the cats were in the barn except her. I think she senses I'm coming to take her away. The other option is she has decided to be promiscuous and is out seeking a boyfriend to impregnate her.
That is how the world is seen today. My advice for you is think things out and take time to enjoy yourself!
Graduated broadcasting school two years ago...crazy to think it's been that long. It has taken me nowhere. Upon completion of Academy of Broadcasting I had landed a job as Summer Events Coordinator at CHVN; that job lasted four months and then summer came to an end and they said, "See ya!" even though they had promised me employment come the end of summer. So that was August 2007 and since then there has been no room for me in the broadcasting field here in Manitoba. I have been to multiple interviews but everyone has said that I either do not have the experience they are needing or my vision is fogged by my want to do on air. People have said that I have not looked hard enough because I am not willing to move for the job. Well I'm sorry that I would rather not leave my family, boyfriend and friends to move to middle of nowhere far from anywhere radio station that I would be paid pennies at. I want to write commercials or talk on the air but because I haven't gained the experience they push me aside. I believe myself to be a talented writer but all potential employers see is the girl with no experience. It's discouraging when you haven't been able to secure a job in your chosen field for two entire years.
So your mind wanders to all the "what if" possibilities. Should I have gone to school for something else? Should I have declared a major in high school instead of just doing everything? Or am I destined to work at nothing jobs? I've been asked by people if I have ever considered going back to school. I most certainly have and I have made many excuses putting it off. My main excuse is money. I have debt that needs to be paid off before considering going back to school. Once money is more settled in our household, going back to school may be an option. Another option once debt is more settled is to just work part time and rely on the man to bring home the bacon...but I think we'll wait a good amount of years before we come to that. If school does become an option I think I would want to go into something like event planning or baking. But not just baking, something more than that, like cake decorating...that would be very cool and an enjoyable job!!
There are so many decisions in this regard that you don't really know where to start. The time will come and I will pursue something great and it will make up for these many years of pushing my way to the top. I will make my way in this world just you wait and see!!
On to brighter and shinier news...it's Friday! Thank goodness, I thought the weekend would never come...I know that sounds cliche. Tonight will be the kick off to this glorious fall weekend! Unfortunately Adam works tonight so tonight will be pizza, popcorn and TV on the Internet(aka Survivor and Grey's Anatomy). I also will be baking birthday cupcakes for my wonderful man who will be celebrating his 25th birthday tomorrow! Tonight will be a nice relaxation period to store up my energy for Saturday! Tomorrow will include icing the cupcakes, cleaning the house and preparing for the birthday fun! We are going to celebrate with an "Around the World T-shirt" party which will include a bonfire and tasty treats. It will be so nice having a bonfire now that the weather is finally cooling down!! Sunday Adam is going hunting so I am still undecided on what I will do. I think I may paint so watercolor pictures or who knows maybe it will just be a movie day! Whatever happens this weekend, it will be great so I can't wait!
According to Environment Canada the weather is dropping down to my long awaited Autumn temperatures! So excited!!! The sweaters and scarves will come out and you can't even imagine how pumped I am for that!! I have already washed all of my scarves, mitts and hats to remove the awful musty smell so they're ready to go and so am I!! Yay Fall!!!
As for kitten status...Pancake has been M.I.A. for the last few days and is still not at our house. Yesterday I went to my mom's and all of the cats were in the barn except her. I think she senses I'm coming to take her away. The other option is she has decided to be promiscuous and is out seeking a boyfriend to impregnate her.
That is how the world is seen today. My advice for you is think things out and take time to enjoy yourself!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Hear ye, hear ye Autumn has cometh
Today is the first official day of Fall. I do believe that it is time for celebration! If I currently wasn't feeling so ill I would get up to do a happy dance but in my current state "No, thank-you". This week the forecast still is showing warmer than normal temperatures but at least in the evening the temps are going down to respectable fall levels. I honestly cannot believe that it's the end of September and the grass is still brilliantly green. At least the trees are slowly turning to the beautiful hues of Autumn. It is so nice to be able to sleep and not melt to death! But apparently along with fall comes the ever dreaded change of season illness. It's no fun whatsoever! I am hoping with a little TLC I will be able to kick this ailment in the butt. Right now I am sitting back and enjoying a nice, warm, refreshing mug of peppermint tea. It's not only refreshing but it's also helping to settle my upset stomach; I highly suggest it if you're not feeling up to par.
I must say that I am loving the sounds of the geese flying south for the winter! One question I do have is where do they fly to? Is there this special "Northern Birds Only" Winter resort somewhere down in Mexico? Or do they just fly until it's warm and settle where the sun shines? And if indeed they are Canadian geese, what do they people in warmer climates say when suddenly this odd looking goose lands in their area. It's a conundrum! Also, do the same geese come back north to the same place they left? By my office there is this big landscaped area that the geese tend to hang out and you have to wonder will the same ones come back here in the spring.
Something very exciting that is coming with Fall is the fact that Adam and I are getting a new kitten. She is all black and fluffy and her name is Pancake. We are getting her from my Mom. I'm picking her up tomorrow night probably. Very excited!! It will be interesting to see how the dog and the cat react to this addition to our little family. Dyna the cat will most likely be rather peeved at first but she'll warm up to the new little one hopefully!
Halloween is just over a month away and I think that I have finally made my decision on the costume. I am going to be a witch. I know that it is one of the more common choices but I have always loved each time that I have been this particular character. Each time I dress as a witch the costume always has improvements or different styles but the costume is always great! This year I think I'm going to try to be a little bit "Hocus Pocus" in my style. I love the movie deeply and am going to enjoy taking examples from the characters. It shall be simply marvelous!
My conclusion is simple, " Have a wonderful first day of Autumn" Your sweaters are calling!
I must say that I am loving the sounds of the geese flying south for the winter! One question I do have is where do they fly to? Is there this special "Northern Birds Only" Winter resort somewhere down in Mexico? Or do they just fly until it's warm and settle where the sun shines? And if indeed they are Canadian geese, what do they people in warmer climates say when suddenly this odd looking goose lands in their area. It's a conundrum! Also, do the same geese come back north to the same place they left? By my office there is this big landscaped area that the geese tend to hang out and you have to wonder will the same ones come back here in the spring.
Something very exciting that is coming with Fall is the fact that Adam and I are getting a new kitten. She is all black and fluffy and her name is Pancake. We are getting her from my Mom. I'm picking her up tomorrow night probably. Very excited!! It will be interesting to see how the dog and the cat react to this addition to our little family. Dyna the cat will most likely be rather peeved at first but she'll warm up to the new little one hopefully!
Halloween is just over a month away and I think that I have finally made my decision on the costume. I am going to be a witch. I know that it is one of the more common choices but I have always loved each time that I have been this particular character. Each time I dress as a witch the costume always has improvements or different styles but the costume is always great! This year I think I'm going to try to be a little bit "Hocus Pocus" in my style. I love the movie deeply and am going to enjoy taking examples from the characters. It shall be simply marvelous!
My conclusion is simple, " Have a wonderful first day of Autumn" Your sweaters are calling!
Friday, September 18, 2009
Strange Days & the Smell of Fall
When you stop worrying about things, you start to notice the world around you. When your over-stressed mind is clear the world becomes your oyster...I have no clue what that exactly means but sounds cool. Anyways... I've been pushing the negative out and pulling the positive in lately. Since the clutter in my mind that is known as stress is slowly dissipating I have become much more aware of my surroundings. One thing that I have become aware of is foot ware on the side of the road. While driving I tend to see shoes and rubber boots randomly laying on the side of the road. For some reason I always tend to look to see if it's the left or right shoe. Amazingly like 95% of the time it's the left boot. It's bizarre. Does this mean that there are hundreds of people wandering around with only one shoe or has the world suddenly become infested by left leg, peg legged pirates. Personally, I kind of hope it's the pirate option...pirates are cool...or at least the friendly ones are!! :) Another thing I noticed was while driving to work this morning. I was stopped at a red light and happened to look over at the van beside me. First thing I noticed was that there were 5 young children in car seats in this van so I say to myself, "Wow, that's a handful". I then look up to the driver and have to take a double take because the woman driving this van was eating a bowl of cereal while driving. I could not believe it. It's one thing to eat like a burger and fries while driving because they can be eaten with one hand but a bowl of cereal? Unless you happen to have a third hand or tentacle how are you holding the steering wheel? Also, is it really safe to not have your full attention on the road when there are 5 little ones in the back seat?
Apparently most of my noticing of things occur while driving and that's where my next siting has been seen. I was driving down Manitoba Ave in Selkirk yesterday and it was the weirdest thing; the trees on each side of the street were different colors. Not in the sense that they were different trees but in the sense that on one side they were green and on the other the leaves were turning yellow for fall and falling from the trees. It was a beautiful site but confuses you a bit. If trees on one side are preparing for fall then why wouldn't the other side? It's just some of the beauty you find in this world I guess.
To continue on the subject of fall, I can smell it in the air. Currently we are still experiencing out of the ordinary weather for September. 30 degrees in the middle of September kind of freaks me out. But even with the heat I still smell Fall in the air. It's not the "Oh I want Fall so badly that I think it's close", it's a literal smell. The air changes. You no longer smell heat, you smell the crispness of freshly fallen leaves. It's the smell of cleansing rain. Fall brings me such a calm. It's a time of anticipation, a time to see the world change before your eyes. I'm very excited to whip out the variety of fall clothes that I have. Sweaters, pants, nylons under your skirts, long sleeve shirts, jackets, and boots. You have so many options in the fall and it's wonderful!! I also find that the colors of fall seem to warm me inside. They are so rich and captivating. Just walking outside in the fall seems to relax you. As the weather begins to cool, I believe that relationships become closer as well. You find more time for cuddling and holding hands. It's the romance of Autumn! Fall time brings holidays as well. Like Thanksgiving! Thanksgiving is a wonderful holiday. I love the meaning of thanksgiving and the fellowship it brings. It brings family together to enjoy a meal that someone has slaved over all day. I am very thankful for Thanksgiving! Towards the end of October the warm and fuzzy feelings are pushed aside for one day and Halloween emerges!! I think I inherited my love for Halloween from my Mom. As a child my favorite TV show/movie was The Addams Family!! Halloween is just so much fun!! I especially love dressing up for it! When I was still going to school I would tend to plan my Halloween costume almost a year in advance. Halloween doesn't have to be scary either. If you want Halloween to become something other than a scare fest think of it as a masquerade. There's nothing to be scared of at a masquerade. Halloween brings the unknown. You can be whoever you want to be on Halloween. If you dream of being a princess or a cowboy or a fireman, you can do it on Halloween. This will be my first year handing out candy at my own house. I plan to decorate and dress up in costume. It's going to be very exciting for me!
Oh Fall I love you so!
I encourage you to take some time and become aware of everything around you. Keep your eyes out for random objects on the road. And please take some time to breathe deep the scent of Fall!!
Apparently most of my noticing of things occur while driving and that's where my next siting has been seen. I was driving down Manitoba Ave in Selkirk yesterday and it was the weirdest thing; the trees on each side of the street were different colors. Not in the sense that they were different trees but in the sense that on one side they were green and on the other the leaves were turning yellow for fall and falling from the trees. It was a beautiful site but confuses you a bit. If trees on one side are preparing for fall then why wouldn't the other side? It's just some of the beauty you find in this world I guess.
To continue on the subject of fall, I can smell it in the air. Currently we are still experiencing out of the ordinary weather for September. 30 degrees in the middle of September kind of freaks me out. But even with the heat I still smell Fall in the air. It's not the "Oh I want Fall so badly that I think it's close", it's a literal smell. The air changes. You no longer smell heat, you smell the crispness of freshly fallen leaves. It's the smell of cleansing rain. Fall brings me such a calm. It's a time of anticipation, a time to see the world change before your eyes. I'm very excited to whip out the variety of fall clothes that I have. Sweaters, pants, nylons under your skirts, long sleeve shirts, jackets, and boots. You have so many options in the fall and it's wonderful!! I also find that the colors of fall seem to warm me inside. They are so rich and captivating. Just walking outside in the fall seems to relax you. As the weather begins to cool, I believe that relationships become closer as well. You find more time for cuddling and holding hands. It's the romance of Autumn! Fall time brings holidays as well. Like Thanksgiving! Thanksgiving is a wonderful holiday. I love the meaning of thanksgiving and the fellowship it brings. It brings family together to enjoy a meal that someone has slaved over all day. I am very thankful for Thanksgiving! Towards the end of October the warm and fuzzy feelings are pushed aside for one day and Halloween emerges!! I think I inherited my love for Halloween from my Mom. As a child my favorite TV show/movie was The Addams Family!! Halloween is just so much fun!! I especially love dressing up for it! When I was still going to school I would tend to plan my Halloween costume almost a year in advance. Halloween doesn't have to be scary either. If you want Halloween to become something other than a scare fest think of it as a masquerade. There's nothing to be scared of at a masquerade. Halloween brings the unknown. You can be whoever you want to be on Halloween. If you dream of being a princess or a cowboy or a fireman, you can do it on Halloween. This will be my first year handing out candy at my own house. I plan to decorate and dress up in costume. It's going to be very exciting for me!
Oh Fall I love you so!
I encourage you to take some time and become aware of everything around you. Keep your eyes out for random objects on the road. And please take some time to breathe deep the scent of Fall!!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Cancellation Policy & Positive Thinking
Cancellations...There is no way to avoid them but I really wish I could. Lately it seems that everybody is making their favorite thing to do cancelling plans with me. Oh, and it's never with plenty of time to make new plans; it's always the day before or the day of so everybody that you could make plans with is already all booked up. I don't mind if when people cancel there is a valid reason or they at least give me plenty of time but last minute with a crappy reason kind of sucks! Well it sucks big time! The plans that get cancelled are usually the ones that I have been looking forward to since the day we made them and then you get that call or text or Facebook message and you're crushed! When the same type of cancellations happen over and over again you can't help but think, "Is there something wrong with me?"
That brings me to my next stage. If you have been around me in the past weeks, months or even years you will notice my negative outlook on everything. People go through phases and negativity apparently has become one of mine. If you knew me through a good part of high school you would remember the positive, happy-go-lucky side of me. Post high school the positivity seemed to have died out a little. I don't know if it's because of the culture shock of entering "the real world" or what but unfortunately it's happened. I've somehow managed to pile the good stuff up in the back of a closet where I seem to have forgotten about it; while I stacked up the bad stuff right beside me and dwell on it like crazy. I've decided it's time for a change. The good stuff is going to come out of the closet and the crap is going to get buried away where I don't need to think of it. Even though my jobs sucks and making new friends is harder than I thought it would be I'm going to plow through and find the positive side of things. I am going to strive to be more impulsive(I've been trying to think of that word for days, mighty happy I finally remembered it); do things out of the ordinary; stop putting overly large amounts of thought into things! If someone cancels on me with short notice and a crappy excuse I will find something that makes me happy, even if it's just staying home and baking cookies! It's the whole when life serves you lemons make lemonade! The process has already began. It started off small with going to the Morris Stampede and getting my palms read. Amazingly the palm reader opened my eyes for me and pulled up the negativity veil for me even if it was just a little bit. I would never have done that before but part of me said be impulsive! Many have noticed in my life that death is something that brings me down. Well it brings everybody down generally but starting last year I suddenly had to deal with lots of it. I am finally starting to be comfortable with death or at least I think I am. My grandparents death, for example, was a crushing experience but you have to think of the good points. Yeah they're not physically on earth anymore but the memories I hold will live on until the end of time. Grandma and grandpa are feeling no pain now and I can remember all the good times and cherish them always. If you look past tragedy you will always see a light even if it's the faintest glow. Last week I attended my step grandfather's funeral. I wasn't close to him but the funeral seemed to get the whole accepting death ball rolling. We can't stop death. There's something bigger than us out there that has planned all of life's events out and death just happens to be the end of the physical plan. On my way home that day I decided to take a detour and go through the small town/village/ whatever it is of Cooks Creek. I had never been there but figured why not. When driving through I was very surprised to see this exquisite church appear before my eyes. I believe it was an Ukrainian Catholic church. This incredible building and yard stood before me surrounded in chain link. Everything was stunning. I'm telling you that this was not something you would expect to find on a Manitoba countryside. Just looking at it made you feel at peace. The amazing calm that came over me felt like something you could only see in movies. Maybe seeing this church was my light in the after effects of my step grandfather's death.
I want to see the light on the other side of the darkness. I want to strive for the positive side of things. I want to become who I was and who I am yet to be. I know with a little effort and a little impulsiveness I can do these things and will do these things. Let's see the brighter side of life!
That brings me to my next stage. If you have been around me in the past weeks, months or even years you will notice my negative outlook on everything. People go through phases and negativity apparently has become one of mine. If you knew me through a good part of high school you would remember the positive, happy-go-lucky side of me. Post high school the positivity seemed to have died out a little. I don't know if it's because of the culture shock of entering "the real world" or what but unfortunately it's happened. I've somehow managed to pile the good stuff up in the back of a closet where I seem to have forgotten about it; while I stacked up the bad stuff right beside me and dwell on it like crazy. I've decided it's time for a change. The good stuff is going to come out of the closet and the crap is going to get buried away where I don't need to think of it. Even though my jobs sucks and making new friends is harder than I thought it would be I'm going to plow through and find the positive side of things. I am going to strive to be more impulsive(I've been trying to think of that word for days, mighty happy I finally remembered it); do things out of the ordinary; stop putting overly large amounts of thought into things! If someone cancels on me with short notice and a crappy excuse I will find something that makes me happy, even if it's just staying home and baking cookies! It's the whole when life serves you lemons make lemonade! The process has already began. It started off small with going to the Morris Stampede and getting my palms read. Amazingly the palm reader opened my eyes for me and pulled up the negativity veil for me even if it was just a little bit. I would never have done that before but part of me said be impulsive! Many have noticed in my life that death is something that brings me down. Well it brings everybody down generally but starting last year I suddenly had to deal with lots of it. I am finally starting to be comfortable with death or at least I think I am. My grandparents death, for example, was a crushing experience but you have to think of the good points. Yeah they're not physically on earth anymore but the memories I hold will live on until the end of time. Grandma and grandpa are feeling no pain now and I can remember all the good times and cherish them always. If you look past tragedy you will always see a light even if it's the faintest glow. Last week I attended my step grandfather's funeral. I wasn't close to him but the funeral seemed to get the whole accepting death ball rolling. We can't stop death. There's something bigger than us out there that has planned all of life's events out and death just happens to be the end of the physical plan. On my way home that day I decided to take a detour and go through the small town/village/ whatever it is of Cooks Creek. I had never been there but figured why not. When driving through I was very surprised to see this exquisite church appear before my eyes. I believe it was an Ukrainian Catholic church. This incredible building and yard stood before me surrounded in chain link. Everything was stunning. I'm telling you that this was not something you would expect to find on a Manitoba countryside. Just looking at it made you feel at peace. The amazing calm that came over me felt like something you could only see in movies. Maybe seeing this church was my light in the after effects of my step grandfather's death.
I want to see the light on the other side of the darkness. I want to strive for the positive side of things. I want to become who I was and who I am yet to be. I know with a little effort and a little impulsiveness I can do these things and will do these things. Let's see the brighter side of life!
Monday, August 24, 2009
The Geriatric Teenager
We live in a land full of geriatric teenagers.
Definition:
Geriatric teenager: One who becomes jealous of something meaningless, like a teenager but teases other in a way that mirrors the actions of the elderly.
Examples: Becoming jealous of someone talking to the opposite sex because that member of the opposite sex is someone you want but can't have.
Out of pure boredom you go after people that are talking to each other just because they are the opposite sex and say "Oh so and so has a crush on you" "So and so likes you" "Where's he/she, oh they're with so and so of course"
I have come to this realization while working at my current job. Some days I feel like I'm back in high school. I have developed a friendship with our computer tech guy and to my fellow employees they think it's attraction that is the reason we speak together when in reality it's just because we happen to have loads in common. The comments and judgements that are thrown our way are ridiculous. There is one girl who has expressed jealousy in this situation.. when I have called looking for the tech guy she tells him "Oh your baseball girlfriend is looking for you". She used to talk to me all the time but now it's rare or she only shows interest if the conversation revolves around her. The guy sees it too...
We've seen comments that range from
"Morgan has a crush on you" to " Oh I see you flirting with Morgan"
I honestly thought that when you moved from the school world to the work force that everyone would grow up at least a little but apparently everyone has stayed in the high school mind set or else they are preparing themselves for the geriatric life where they can say anything they want and get away with it for the most part.
I don't understand why and how people can live in a world where the feel that the only reason for a guy and girl to speak is sex. It's just not like that anymore. In some aspects I much prefer to have guys to talk to. Throughout my life I have for the most part always had a male confidant. They are great. You can have fun but you don't have to deal with the tears and heartache as much. Guys are pretty much drama free and that's a nice break to have in a group of friends.
The job itself isn't too bad but I wish there was a little more for me to do in my department...It's just the people that are pulling all my nerves. It's ridiculous the only people that I can manage to hang out with and hold a conversation are the shipping guys, the tech guy, the girl that shares my desk and that's pretty much it. Everyone else is too stuck up or way far out of my age bracket so I don't have anything whatsoever in common with them. This is just a weird atmosphere. My last few jobs have been primarily all young females so you have plenty in common with a side of cattiness...But this is way different. I don't really fit in anywhere in particular just with the few odd people listed above.
Everyone has a geriatric teenager in there life..the question is what do you do with them?
Definition:
Geriatric teenager: One who becomes jealous of something meaningless, like a teenager but teases other in a way that mirrors the actions of the elderly.
Examples: Becoming jealous of someone talking to the opposite sex because that member of the opposite sex is someone you want but can't have.
Out of pure boredom you go after people that are talking to each other just because they are the opposite sex and say "Oh so and so has a crush on you" "So and so likes you" "Where's he/she, oh they're with so and so of course"
I have come to this realization while working at my current job. Some days I feel like I'm back in high school. I have developed a friendship with our computer tech guy and to my fellow employees they think it's attraction that is the reason we speak together when in reality it's just because we happen to have loads in common. The comments and judgements that are thrown our way are ridiculous. There is one girl who has expressed jealousy in this situation.. when I have called looking for the tech guy she tells him "Oh your baseball girlfriend is looking for you". She used to talk to me all the time but now it's rare or she only shows interest if the conversation revolves around her. The guy sees it too...
We've seen comments that range from
"Morgan has a crush on you" to " Oh I see you flirting with Morgan"
I honestly thought that when you moved from the school world to the work force that everyone would grow up at least a little but apparently everyone has stayed in the high school mind set or else they are preparing themselves for the geriatric life where they can say anything they want and get away with it for the most part.
I don't understand why and how people can live in a world where the feel that the only reason for a guy and girl to speak is sex. It's just not like that anymore. In some aspects I much prefer to have guys to talk to. Throughout my life I have for the most part always had a male confidant. They are great. You can have fun but you don't have to deal with the tears and heartache as much. Guys are pretty much drama free and that's a nice break to have in a group of friends.
The job itself isn't too bad but I wish there was a little more for me to do in my department...It's just the people that are pulling all my nerves. It's ridiculous the only people that I can manage to hang out with and hold a conversation are the shipping guys, the tech guy, the girl that shares my desk and that's pretty much it. Everyone else is too stuck up or way far out of my age bracket so I don't have anything whatsoever in common with them. This is just a weird atmosphere. My last few jobs have been primarily all young females so you have plenty in common with a side of cattiness...But this is way different. I don't really fit in anywhere in particular just with the few odd people listed above.
Everyone has a geriatric teenager in there life..the question is what do you do with them?
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Changes
I guess blogging is not really my thing or something considering Nov 2008 was my last post. Many things have changed since then. April 2009 Adam and I moved into our very first house together. We are no living in Beausejour. Moving was quite the hassle. The previous owners did not move everything out. All big furniture and appliances were removed but EVERYTHING else was left. Adam's mom and I spent the day hauling the crap out so we could move our stuff in. The entire driveway was packed with the stuff they left. It was sickening! When we were finally able to start settling into our house things got better. We are now enjoying living here very much. Haven't doen much work on the house yet other than painting the kitchen but it will all come with time.
Another change is also finding a new job. As much as I loved working at MTS to begin with I grew to hate it. They ended up relying on me for everything. Everyone was too lazy to do anything. The job had no future and I knew I needed to get out of there as soon as humanly possible. Finally I found a new job at BOMImed in Winnipeg as an administrative assistant. I started there at the beginning of June. It's an alright job. It's been kind of slow to begin with but I'm going to stick it out because they are very good employers and almost everyone that works there has been there for over 5 years.
I've also joined a softball team in Beausejour. I suck big time but it's fun anyways and with practice I will get better. We're called the Howland Hooters!
I can't really think off hand what else is worth mentioning but at least I caught up on my blog!
Another change is also finding a new job. As much as I loved working at MTS to begin with I grew to hate it. They ended up relying on me for everything. Everyone was too lazy to do anything. The job had no future and I knew I needed to get out of there as soon as humanly possible. Finally I found a new job at BOMImed in Winnipeg as an administrative assistant. I started there at the beginning of June. It's an alright job. It's been kind of slow to begin with but I'm going to stick it out because they are very good employers and almost everyone that works there has been there for over 5 years.
I've also joined a softball team in Beausejour. I suck big time but it's fun anyways and with practice I will get better. We're called the Howland Hooters!
I can't really think off hand what else is worth mentioning but at least I caught up on my blog!
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